Today I went to a little get together with some other ladies.
Someone that I didn't know was making conversation with me
and after I told her my kids were in school she said,
"so what do you do all day?"
Hmmmmm, What do I do all day?
I honestly didn't feel like answering her question. I think I just mumbled something and she looked at me kind of strangely and that was that.
Am I supposed to have a job or something? Am I supposed to have a craft enterprise since I have so much time on my hands? Should I be exercising all day or going to school or organizing charitable events?
Maybe I should be. I don't know.
How do you answer that question when you are just a normal woman trying to build a home for your family. Isn't that my job?
She didn't mean anything by it I am sure.
It's just me, my insecurity.
I sometimes get the feeling that other women look at me and wonder what I am doing with myself.
I never thought I would be an almost thirty year old woman with two kids in school most of the day. I thought I would be busy for years and years having and raising babies.
I guess I am still trying to figure all of this out.
That is what I'm doing all day.
Until then....??
1 comment:
Tifani--I know exactly what you feel like. I get that question ALL the time, especially since I don't have kids at home. What do you do all day? Do you get bored? I hate those questions. I just say something like ...I do whatever I want--it's great! And I leave it at that. I feel the same way--like they expect something else or can't believe that I'm not working or something. I used to get really annoyed at first; now it's just more of answering with my standard answer without thinking much about it. But it does bug me sometimes. I have found that the only people who are excited for me or who smile at me when I say I am at home all day are the older women in the ward. Kind of interesting. I think they know deep down inside that it is a privilege to stay at home. It's the younger generation of girls our age that look at you strange and make you feel weird. I almost like saying it though---I think sometimes it makes a point to them. :)
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